Future????

This is interesting. I am getting swamped by all the diffeerent blogs out there. I already have a xanga blog, a sports blog, and a blog for my theological, doctrinal or biblical concerns. This one will be for me just to update and write out where I am and where I am going.
I am currently in my final year at lbc...thank God!! I am getting married in 26 days, yah baby!! And I am beginning to feel Gods leadings in some very strong ways. One thing that I have been struggling with lately is God's will for my life...doesn't everybody. I have come to the conclusion that instead of sitting on my butt and waiting for God to work, I need get out and begin seeking out oportunities to serve and then let God be the one to close or open a door. I had begun to seek out opportunities in which I could serve, but was convicted because every one of those ministires that I looked into were very safe. In other words, I was only looking to serve if my wife and I would be comfortable, a nice house, good paycheck, etc.. And God begun to really be pressing me as if to say, "hey bonehead....what about trusting me, what about doing my work and then letting me provide for you." All I hear from my Christian influences is that I need to make sure that "I" can provide for my family and that "I" make sure that we are financially secure. What about God providing for our needs. If we look back to those in the New Testament at those we were sold out disciples for Christ, they did not wait till they had strong monetary support, or seek out there own financial security. No, they left that to God, because He said that he will provide for us if we follow after Him! Now, its not because I am lazy and do not want to support my wife, becuase I do. I am a man and as in all men it pains me sometimes to know that my wife cannot have the things that I would love for her to have. But she realizes and I realize that we are here to make disciples and to do all that we can to live radically for our Savior.
Wow...what a rant. I guess this should be my rantings blog. HAHA. Anyway, all that to say that Amy and I have really been praying about and seeking out an opportunity to start a Worship Camp in West Virginia. It is going to be an unbelievable stretch, seeing how we have no money, but we know that if this is what God has for us then he will provide. I just know that if step out in faith, I mean really step out in faith then God will take care of us. Am I scared?? Heck yes I am, but God has called me to make disciples and that is my desire. So I wouldask for prayer as we let God lead. I mean, maybe God has other plans, if so then glory be to my Savior, lets go where He wants.
Anyway, I think I am safe to say whatever I want because I doubt many people if any will be reading this. Probably because I am a loser with no friends...jk, haha, have a great day all!

Derrick Howry